update…update

I have not written in many months and it is because I was able to return to work, school, and any other daily necessities.  I would look back in here to read other people’s blogs but did not feel compelled to write.  Today I feel compelled to write.  I am having problems with my OCD centralizing around one thing and that is being overweight.  I obsess about how I look ugly body wise but I feel I am very pretty in my face.  I tell myself to go exercise but there is no interest?  I try to get people to go walk with me, but my husband isn’t interested because he has been on his feet all day.  Others aren’t available or doing other things.  All the obsessing is leading to down feelings and non-motivation.  I see my therapist tomorrow, hoping that helps.  I find a lot of people on here have bipolar but I really have a hard time finding people on here that have OCD to talk to.  Anyone with problems with their OCD?

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Weight gain on meds

Anyone have weight gain on anafranil , or lithium? At first on lithium, I lost weight due to the excessive thirst for water side effect. That subsidded and now I think I have gained 10 pounds in the year I have been on Lithium. Anafranil lists weight gain as a possible side effect too. Look forward to anyone’s thoughts on this.

Hello world

Have not written in a long time but have been reading here and there on wordpress.  Work has been going fine as well as classes and I have felt stable until five days ago.  I had been on the weight watchers diet for three months now and have only lost five pounds and it fluctuates.  Over time, I became obsessed with weight and my OCD took over with it.  Since then, I have been having problems wanting to goto work, getting ready for work, counting down the minutes or hours to get home from work or class.  It is very frusterating, and you would think that work or class would distract me from these feelings, but it is not working.  When the teacher just talks at you for 2.5 hours, I lose interest after the first half hour.  Today, I couldn’t get to work, could not get ready in time, didn’t care.  Called in, and so far I have been doing things around the house slowly.  I have one assignment I need to do before tomorrow and I have a counseling appointment in the afternoon but that is a long wait to go when you feel like you need to go a lot sooner.  Then I have small periods of feeling better, but it passes and the sadness or uneasiness comes back.

I have to wonder if I am having bipolar swings or is my OCD running amuck?  I wish I was not home alone, but my husband has to work.  Feel like crying, then I get distracted.