Yesterday was a super low day. I had obsessions that would not let go, and sent me into a deep depression. Now, today it has all changed. The opposite end has landed. Today I feel refreshed, and looking forward to the future. Maybe that is typical of being Bipolar perhaps? Not that I know what the future will hold or come from it but feel positive anyways. I have a couple of ideas I am exploring as far as going back to college again that have my interest and I will explore them to see if it is a good fit or not. One is teaching biology in the high school level, which I have the option to do a fast track 10 month program to become just that through a college, it is a masters program. The other is a cardiac sonographer through another college which is a 13.5 month program. I would have to a do a few pre-req.s but I can do that. I have always had a big interest in medical things of all sorts since a little kid but never thought I could do anything in that field because I was not good at science in high school. Therefore, I did not explore that idea, just chucked it. Every-time I am at a hospital for me or someone else, I am always asking questions about what a machine does or what the procedure does , how it works. Usually I keep them longer than that want, but I have a huge curiosity in the information. It’s like I cannot get enough. It’s always been a fun past time to study. Never thinking I could be a nurse, because I did not like that avenue specifically though.
One day, I had an echocardiogram to see if there was anything to my heart palpitation’s my doctor found. While it showed nothing that would hurt me, I was fascinated with what I saw on the screen , and pelted all sorts of questions to the cardiac sonographer. As much as he had time for. I thought it was so cool to see what was on the screen, the valves, what they do, and how all the functions work together in the heart. Funny, I did not want to leave and wanted to see more, but didn’t ask, thought he would think I was strange. Perhaps I should have always known being at a hospital or medical environment never bothered me , but fascinated me, and saw it as a learning opportunity. I should have known that for every surgery I had, asking all the people in different job titles about what they do, and questions specific to my case; there was something there. Going into an operating room is great because I want to know what everything is and what it does, but never have time to explore because the team wants to get going on my operation. I squeeze in as much as I can before I am put to sleep. I always get the feeling they don’t get someone like me often in there.
So, we will see where this goes, and see if my interests lasts, I have nothing to lose. I will hold onto this feeling of being happy. Never hurts to at least explore the idea.