Today seems to be better than yesterday. I keep worrying that the day will go the same as yesterday, but again I cannot predict the future so that is mute. Enjoyed the morning with my husband going to the garden, and farmer’s market. Now I am just waiting to goto work in a half hour for a set up for the coming week. Hate that they schedule it in the middle of the day, which it is hard to plan your day around that. My husband went on a long hike despite the excessive heat warning and as much as I would love to go hiking, not in what feels like 105 temp. Tried to talk him out of it, to no avail.
Having some loneliness feeling now that he left and it is just me in our home with the sound of the air conditioner running constantly. Really don’t feel like cleaning, have some light anxiety over worrying about my husband out there. Just want to feel at peace whether I am busy or not busy. I had been using power walking as my anxiety buster but seeing as the excessive heat keeps coming back, that does not work. Had a gym membership at one time and canceled it after months of not using it enough. Now I wish I had it. Sigh. Feeling a little sad being cooped up in the condo, keeping shades drawn to block out the heat.
I hate the feeling of not feeling like yourself. Sort of like feeling like a fish out of water even though your in your home. Not sure how to get past that. Any suggestions are welcome.