I know what I need to do and get done but the motivation isn’t there first thing in the morning, or even an hour after I wake up. I can sit and obsess over what I need to do, feel guilty for not doing it and then spend the next hour trying to muster up the ambition to do it. It’s like my mind says I am plain out not interested in starting the day whatever that entails. Trying to change it’s mind is like moving a boulder with your bare hands. It’s hard to get into a routine when your substitute teaching, you never know when there will be a job or not until early the morning of when all the teachers decide to call out last minute. It is hard to plan on that type of crap shoot. I have a lead on a long term sub job but am waiting to hear back on the next step which is really hard to wait on. I don’t do well with things up in the air and ambiguity. Anyone else experience the no desire to get going in the morning and do what you need to do?