Today went ok except the anxiety increased about going back to work tomorrow. TV seems to drown it out or reading a book. Got some good time into my class done, so feel productive there. Did some errands with my husband, feel productive there. Taking a shower seemed to feel like dragging a boulder through quick sand, not sure why. Probably part of the depression. My dad said he would call in the morning while I get ready for work to give me a pep talk which is what I really need, so I am grateful for that. Parts of today, I have felt anxiety take hold and sort of paralyze me where I do not want to do anything but stay inside and watch TV. That is such an annoying feeling. This morning I felt strong and hopeful. Now I just feel sort of nonchalant and not as confident. Perhaps that coffee I had was too much caffeine and why I had stomach problems. Seems like coffee speeds up my digestion and if I have too much, I have stomach issues. My husband went to his college course and I hate being home alone while he is at it. Usually, I am very unmotivated to do anything when there is no one present. If there is someone present here, I will get up and do things. Not sure why that is. I keep having to tell myself that there is nothing to be scared of at work just because I had a bad day on Friday and flustered and upset. Why must I assume the same will happen again?