Well the day is here, going back to work. My OCD started up, but somehow I am forcing myself to get ready. Trying to tell myself if I face my fear of going back, then the anxiety will go down. I try to think of the compliments I have received at my job, and the nice things the kids have said to motivate me. I tell myself I deserve to feel calm, and settled. Trying not to view this place as some awful place to go and feel all PTSD about it. Now that I think about it, maybe my PTSD is playing a factor. Trying to think of things that are positive and stuff to look forward to to carry me through. Wish me luck.