Why is it that I feel like I am scared to goto work at a new job and that seems terrifying and a better idea sounds like finding a work from home job instead? Mind you this only started after quitting my job last week that was super stressful and bad behaviors rampantly of kids. Never in my life have I felt this way about a job. Never been scared to go or dreaded it. Anyone else been through this or knows why this happens? I can go do errands and medical appointments plus the gym. What gives?
if you find the answers to this please send them my way…I’ve experienced this for 6 months now
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Experienced my symptoms for six months? Did something happen big that triggered it?
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yea…I had a meltdown in a meeting that involved sobbing uncontrollably and I turned in my resignation a few hours after that
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Did you have problems leading up to it?
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anxiety and paranoia…I felt like my colleagues could sense that I had bipolar and it just led to an increase in anxiety and I finally broke…I think I’m finally ready to go back to work, I just need to convince myself of it and take the leap.
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I have a job interview on friday and for some reason it frightens me and locking into a job scares me. I do not really understand why I feel this way or why this is happening. It is like if I do not see it as a safe zone, it is scary?
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that’s exactly how I feel
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Is there a name to this phenomenon?
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I’m not sure …my therapist and I have been working on some exercises to help ease my anxiety/paranoia…my ex coined me with being manipulative in situations such as this although, I disagree…of course
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Can you share what those excerises are? Anything I will take with welcome ears.
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I see her every two weeks and she gives me tasks/assignments to complete. For example, by next Thursday when I see her again. I am to spend a full 8 hours in a work type environment. Where I live the are public work space developments…have you ever heard of WeWork? there is something very similar where I live and being that I am also currently in school, I’ll actually have something to work on while there…so she wants me to have a simulated work environment to decrease anxiety …prior to this she’s had me go to public places and ride public transit, both of which I have completed. Took me awhile…a lot of patience but trying many times, I was able to complete.
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Never heard of we work. Will have to look it up.
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do you ever try distraction techniques?
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Yes, movies, watching car videos, talking on the phone, reading.
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music and ear buds?
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good luck with your interview
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Not sure if I will be able to take myself there.
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Reblogged this on The Bipolar Architect and commented:
My sentiments exactly. I hope you haven’t experienced negative feedback from a loved one and/or friends who are quick to point it out …”well you can go to the doctor so why can’t you go to _____ ” insert various terms in the blank …It’s like some people believe we purposely do this…that we purposely don’t want to be normal and contribute to society to fulfill our own happiness.
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No I have not. Thanks for reposting it.
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The more people I have to deal with the more difficulty I have functioning. For example, I do poorly in large crowds, working with lots of individuals, socializing in big groups. The unpredictability of the dynamics of a large group of people is too much for me to deal with on a comfortable level. In other words, it makes me panic.
I’ve changed to a smaller support group, turned down going to countless parties, gave up grocery shopping, have solitary hobbies or ones that may involve one or two other people, go to a different church service, quit my job.
I’ve learned to accept my limitations and make the necessary adjustments to keep myself from suffering needlessly. I spent too many years ignoring my pain and trying to be “normal”, refusing to modify my activities based on the cues my body and mind were giving me (I.e., stress, panic, anxiety, depression, physical pain, ) until it was too late (suicide attempt).
Now, I know, I cannot change myself – I have bipolar. I have these limits. Some people don’t even though they have bipolar too. I am not one of those people. But I quit trying to change ME and started changing the things around me to better support me and it’s made all the difference in keeping me healthier. Hope all this made sense.
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Thank you very much for your input. I appreciate it.
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PS not suggesting that you don’t work, but maybe to think about what type of job would support you and your current limitations. Good luck with you interview.
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Working at home can be hard at first and it takes discipline to get work done but it is great to have more freedom to do what I want. Give it a try you will like it.
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Have you tried working rom home?
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Right now, my doctor does not want me to work, but yes I have looked at that.
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