Well today I left the house because I was lonely, needed an excuse to do something and get out. I went to get my nails done which was nice then needed to blow some time off before re-testing for allergies because the office says you have to do it every few years. So it was 11:45am and I wondered what to do. I went over to the quarry lake where there is a walking path you can do. I did that while talking to a friend on the phone about what happened with my husband. Talking about it made me feel worse and more anxiety. It probably did not help that I had just had another cup of coffee too. Felt panicky and wanted to go home but could not because I needed to goto this appointment. Took half an ativan, then got a sandwhich and went to the doctors office. Turns out from four years of allergy shots, I am no longer allergic to a lot of things. Very good news. Got through all that, called my dad on the way home, needed to hear someone I love. Got home and was glad to be home. Been sitting here since just happy to be home. The anxiety has gone down, but it had been a very goofy day. Wish I could fall asleep for a nap but I know that hasn’t happened since I started taking vyvanse. Before I could nap no problem. I guess I took it as a tradeoff for the positive effects of vyvanse. So I start my job Wednesday and I am scared to go but not sure why. Doesn’t really make sense, it is going to be an easy and stress free job. What am I afraid of? Somethings that came to me were what if I have panic and cannot escape? What if I wake up and take my meds but they do not kick in soon enough? Anyone ever experience this?