Today I made the decision to attend a day treatment program. The earliest they could get me in was Tuesday and it is for ten days, weekdays. Nothing is working, didn’t make it to work today. Had a few crying spells. My insurance set it up while on the phone with me and the facility, and my intake is Monday at 3pm. I have never done this before but my therapist had talked about it a few times and I couldn’t make the plunge. At first I felt like a loser and falling behind in life compared to others but a lot of others are not dealing with my issues at all. This gives me hope compared to before this, just wish I could start tomorrow. Had to let my job know and they asked if they could hold my job for me? I was dumbfounded because I did not expect that, I told them I had to think about it. So there it is. The best thing that happened today was that I walked a neighbor’s dog today and got paid and I actually felt normal and good. Wish I could do that more often as she has me only doing it twice a week, thirty minute walks, ten dollars a walk.