Well I have completed four days of this. The first day was super overwhelming and tiring. The rest of the days went smoother. The positives are that it give me structure from 8:30-3:30pm, and I have a sense of community with all the people that are there. Plus I feel like I fit in because we all have the same or similiar issues. Sometimes I get bored because it is basically group therapy all day of different kinds, some presenters have no animation to themselves which makes it boring. Boredom seems to indicate agitation for me easily. No med changes have been made yet because the psychiatrist wants to talk to my regular one as I requested so. My mornings go well and I am in good spirits, but the trend is it changes around 2pm or so and I become indifferent or bored, then later in the evening I seem to feel depressed. Oh and I don’t feel right in the head until I take my meds in the morning and wait for them to kick in before I fee like I want to get off the couch. The staff is always nice, and I feel safe there. Oh and I met with a professional outside of outpatient care about service dog. The guy said I definitely qualify for a service dog and he would sign off on all paperwork for it. This coming Wednesday, we will meet again about all the information he gathered and how to start the process. I know nothing about this process but am willing to investigate.
It is very strange that for the whole morning time and into about 1 or 2, I am interested, inspired, happy, feeling decent, wanting to shower or cook, then it all disappears . I really do not get this, nor has anyone offered any explanation for this other than not being stable or depressed. But I feel there is more to this phenomenon. Any takers?