I started reading a book called feeling good by David Burns. I grabbed it at the gift shop of the hospital where I am getting outpatient treatment from. I had a lot of anxiety going in there and basically had a low level of anxiety through the whole day. It felt like if I could just get into this book, I can distract myself from all my feelings. I also got this little trinket to fiddle with while you have anxiety. I have read about fifty pages and like it. Right now, I am bored with it, but I will go back to it. After taking my meds, and eating some cereal plus reading some, I felt motivated to go get gas and a prescription. That felt strange because I just wanted to go home and was counting when I could go home. That is disappointing, simple errands right? All I really feel like doing today is reading on the couch and watching TV and playing on the internet. There are thoughts of I should do this or that but that seems so mundane and difficult. I have a gym membership that I don’t use, feel guilty because my dad paid for it, he actually forced me into getting it. I am overall trying to ignore the depression and how it feels like it is getting worse. Anyone else read this book I talked about above?