Seems like all day except for four hours has been depression. Not only depression but obsessional depression. Felt like everything I did today felt like a chore and I did a lot. I don’t know if I would rather scream or cry. There is a lot of what if questions, some rational , some irrational. Sometimes I feel like, “don’t want to wake up to another day like this.” Yesterday was a much better day. I do not know what the hell is wrong with me. Oh yes, things seem much more boring than usual, that is annoying. Then when my mind is clear, I think, “what if the depression or obsessions come back?” Does anyone else experience what I do? Sometimes I worry if I will sleep at night but I sleep anyways nightly. Feel like I could use a lot of comfort of some sort. I wish this would stop.