This morning, my thoughts and obsessions became too much and I felt like I could not deal. So I ate, fed the cats and fish, had coffe. Decided to engross my mind in cnn. I need a whole 24 hours to not think of ruminations or depressive episodes. Have little interest in going to a job fair or work on my classes. Depression seems to just over rule. I need an outlet that actually works to take me out of my head other than movies or phone conversations. Feels like not a lot works.