I am frusterated when I look at job ads. Either they do not interest me or I am not qualified. I look for awhile then get annoyed. Annoyed because of my lack of drive and interest is not there like it used to be. In the morning, it is there but not later in the day. I need a job for structure and something to do. I keep trying and things do not change. I want the old me back. Bold, confident, content, always have imitative. My husband is very successful in his field and I feel left behind. Actually, anyone who can hold a full time job for years , I feel left behind. I am a graduate student but it is not enough. I do not know when I will break through this wall.